Back in January, I went to one of my favorite places, the Being One Center. Once a month there’s an event called Spirit Speaks Gallery: an Evening of Messages from Your Personal Spirit Guides. It’s facilitated by Leslie Ramos who is a 5th generation medium and she gives readings to those in attendance.
I’ll be honest, I don’t really understand how it works. It’s something I want to continue exploring because I find it all fascinating, how it could possibly be that a human could receive messages from Spirit. I’m not really even sure what draws me to a place I don’t really understand. I think it’s just wanting to understand, wanting answers.
Anyway, so back in January, my question to Leslie was about this year and what she saw happening. She said it would be a roller coaster. She said I know you don’t like roller coasters or change, you like security and for things to remain the same. But it’ll be good for you.
She said the person you’re seeing now isn’t it. After the summer, everything will shift. You’ll meet someone to take you to the next level — it’ll be work and a challenge but it’ll be good. She talked about making choices versus just being okay with whatever happens. There’s no right or wrong, but there’s choice. I’ll get a dog. Finances will be good, don’t worry about it.
She asked when I will trust myself to give back to people, that spirituality is a part of me and to start giving to others in that way. She said it’s a choice to let in love and money.
July: The Halfway Mark
So far, she’s been spot on. This year has truly been a roller coaster. Just this week it felt like going from old patterns of anxiety and self-loathing and buffering and cloudy thinking and escaping to the high-flying feelings of love and peace and allowing and amazingness.
For sure the low will come again.
As will the high.
And do you know what one of the best things I’ve learned along the way has been?
It’s that the lows aren’t something to resist or get upset over. It’s another invitation to take a look at what’s going on in the mind, our thoughts and feelings and really sit with them.
Stay. It’s okay.
Last week I went on a date and it’s like with each date I go on, the thought I have is “this could be my person.” And then I freak out and panic and can’t sleep or eat for a couple of days.
And then, of course, it passes and I feel great again.
One of the things I’ve noticed is when that happens I want to escape it and not feel that way and I literally try to run away from it by going for a drive or a walk. So this last week, I’ve been using the thought “Lauren, stay. It’s okay.”
It’s okay to freak out. It’s okay to panic. It’s okay to want a partner. It’s okay to feel bad and anxious.
Just stay with it.
Sit with it.
Feel it directly.
And it goes away.
And it comes again.
And we do it again.
It’s part of the plan.
Stay. It’s okay.